this is going to be really sappy, so i’m warning you to stop now if you don’t want to hear it. i’m so glad i didn’t do any of the dumb things i wanted to sophmore year. i’m just so glad i’m still on this planet. wanting to end your own life is probably the most terrifying feeling the entire world, because your worst enemy is your own mind. there’s nowhere to run to, and the thoughts are just so persistent. i lost my uncle to suicide a few years ago, and it completely ruined my family. getting to that level of desperation is something that shouldn’t be taken lightly.

i’m not going to say i don’t have relapses sometimes, but i feel as if that’s part of growing up. i’ve done things i never thought i would be able to do, and have met so many wonderful people in these two years that i would have never had the pleasure of meeting. the world is a hard place sometimes, and the desperation of wanting to escape your own head is still a very prominent part of my life, but now it’s more controlled. i can’t wait to start my life, for all the beautiful things i’m going to experience, all of the amazing people i’m going to meet.

i’m just so glad i didn’t give up. i’m so glad that i’m still alive. 

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  1. thewriteandthewritten reblogged this from me0wzedong and added:
    same without you in it.
  2. viennaaaa said: I needed this.I had a real moment of weakness this morning when I considered downing all the sleeping pills in my room.Instead, I drove 2 hours to come home& see my family.I’m not in a good place right now, but I’m hoping to get better. This helped.
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